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Friday, October 08, 2010

Remember when you told me to never let go?

I didnt.

But you did.

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Tuesday, May 04, 2010

Sinking...

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Monday, May 03, 2010

If you find yourself here on my side of town
I'd pray that you'd come to my door
Talk to me like you don't know what we ever fought about
Cause I don't remember anymore
I just know that she warms my heart
And knows what all my imperfections are
And she said that I was the brightest little firefly in her jar

And I just know that she warms my heart
And knows what all my imperfections are
And she says that I am the brightest little firefly in her jar

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Wednesday, April 21, 2010

http://helpguide.org/mental/anxiety_types_symptoms_treatment.htm

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Wednesday, September 16, 2009

So the current diagnosis is possibly asthma coming back which is triggered by stress and anxiety. But the weak heart rate? Ngast.

Anyway, basically, i'm not supposed to get myself upset or stressed or tensed or i'll get another one of those attacks again. And i hate them coz its getting worse lately. And it's taking longer to recover from. And it makes me super weak. Lung function test next week. Then we'll see how it goes. Should've asked for anxiety pills or sleeping pills.

I feel the need for LOTSA fun. Chalet fun or just doing fun stuff with frens and having loads of laugh. Need to laugh. I miss the fun we used to have...the whole NFE gang.

Happy thoughts....happy thoughts....

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Monday, September 07, 2009

Sooo.... I think i pretty much have all of that =/

ECG end of the month it is.

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Wednesday, August 05, 2009

I feel so lifeless. . . . . . . . .

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Wednesday, July 29, 2009

I've been so busy with work and trying to squeeze in time to rest after work and exploring my new blackberry that i havent had the time to write about my advanced birthday party that my sweet sweet dinosaw planned for me! :)

I gotta say, he did a really good job at surprising me. Coz i seriously, honestly, did not see it coming AT ALL. Until we reached the bbq pit. Haha. I was still in a daze on monday. I kept staring at the blackberry and touching it just to be sure that it really is mine. I love him sooo much!!

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Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Things to do:

Get a haircut
Get a freakin chequebook
Go to Daiso/Spotlight/Ikea to get the necessary stuff
Dress up more office-ish for work
Buy more shoes! Hoho

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Monday, June 29, 2009

Seychelles has such pretty shoes..

On Zappos.com
On Shoes.com

Please let me get a better job so i can buy them

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Sunday, June 21, 2009

The next pair of shoes i'd love to get would probably be this...

Seychelles Teardrop Slingback

But there's no way i'm gona pay that much. Hoho.
Really pretty tho...really pretty...

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Thursday, June 18, 2009

Where does one find shoes like this in singapore ey?

In other news, i'm being stalked and fearing for my life but people seem to find it funny, my contract with IBM ends on 30th September and i'm planning to get outta there. Hopefully to the National Heritage Board. 3 years is enough thank u! And i'm working on getting my degree application done. If i'm in, i'll get me a mini laptop for schoolwork.

I want this shoe!
[edit]Bought it! Harhar! I cant blardy wait for it to arrive! This calls for a work wardrobe update![/edit]

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Tuesday, June 09, 2009

Is it weird to feel scared when i wana talk to you about something? I have questions, but i'm afraid to ask you.

We promised not to hide anything and talk about everything...

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Wednesday, May 27, 2009

I should get this. So i can cycle around with binks in it.

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Friday, May 15, 2009

Is this hilarious or wat??

If they had this in a bunny costume, wld've been cool:

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Monday, April 13, 2009

Now i really gotta go to ikea. The top shelf in my cupboard crashed at like 3 or 4am while i was asleep. I figured it'll give way someday. What with all the weight my bedlinens and bags and towels and stuff are putting on it. About time anyway. Was supposed to get me some new storage space for my ever growing collection of clothes. But its gotta wait til end of the month coz rite now, i'm broke :( So i'm temporarily storing all the stuff in watever shelf space i can find. Heh

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Tuesday, April 07, 2009

I forgot to mention...

The little dinosaw bought me 2 harajuku lovers perfume! And it came with a free watch. Heheh. I still havent opened the packagings yet. One is Love, the other's Music. I loooove the smell of em!

In other news, we're still looking for a new place. Wish i knew someone who's in the property industry. It's not easy to find something that's within our budget.

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Thursday, April 02, 2009

The orange one's pretty

Saw this one someone's blog. Not sure where she got it from. But anyhoos, i like the bedroom! Been wanting to revamp my room but havent had the time/money. Plus nobody's willing to accompany me to ikea

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Friday, March 06, 2009

I'm not much of a Jason Mraz fan. But his latest song Make It Mine is really nice. Everytime i hear it while on the bus on the way to work makes me wish i already have my cruiser bike. And that i probably took the day off and was cycling to the beach listening to that song. Somehow it puts a smile on my face.

p.s. I miss my handsome boyfren. Cant wait to squeeze his cheeks tomorow. Heheh

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Monday, February 16, 2009

I think we had a good valentine's.

Don't u think? :D

Good thing i managed to do up that little book in time. Heheh

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Monday, January 19, 2009

Was browsing thru Simply Her Feb 09 issue while waiting for the boy earlier. They had this feature on bikes and which local shop sells cool cruiser bikes. And i saw this...

Paul Frank Picnic Cruiser

OMG!!

I went to the website of the company that makes this -- http://www.nirve.com/womens.asp?cat=cobranded&cid=550.25 and saw a couple of other really nice cruiser bikes! The Paul Frank Julius is much nicer!

But converted to SGD, i think its abt 500 bucks. Gotta find a copy of Feb's Simply Her and find out the name of that shop.

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Sunday, January 04, 2009

I wish my life was much better than it's turning out to be.

I wish things were different.

I wish certain things didnt change.

I wish i didnt have to quietly worry about things.

Above all, i wish to always have you by my side.

Telling me that you love me.

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Sunday, December 21, 2008

I just had a really awesome weekend with the little dinosaw. Although...he slept thru most of it. But it's ok...hee. It was just like totally...

Wow.

Happy Anniversary indeed =P

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Monday, December 08, 2008

Saturday was hella fun. And i'm still exhausted from it. I love my uniform thankyouverymuch.

HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY LITTLE DINOSAW!!

I wana do it again. Ahahahahah

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Sunday, November 23, 2008

Yesterday was one of the best time we've had lately. Was just me and the boy.. I really didnt know what to do this weekend so i decided to leave it all up to him. And turns out he did have a great idea after all....ice skating! I wasnt realy sure how cold the place would be so i packed double of everything. Haha.

The boy liked what i was wearing ;)

While waiting for the shuttle bus at kallang mrt, we were eating buns and he was bugging me to tell him what his present is that we totally didnt notice the shuttle bus came by. I ran up to flag it down but the damn bus driver didnt even bother to stop even tho he saw me! Gah. But it didnt matter coz we figured we could just walk there. Wasnt too bad at first coz it was pretty shady and all, then halfway thru it suddenly got pretty warm, then from the other side, majorly huge dark clouds were heading towards us. And then it got us thinking if we should make a run for it. But we didnt. Haha. Oh and it was during this walk that i also found out that the boy had sneaked into my cupboard arnd the time of his birthday in 2006 and saw the PSP which was to be his present! GRRRR... But at least this year he has absolutely no clue at all *evil laugh*

We finally got to the skating ring. So i excitedly put on my skates and sweater and gloves and hoped i wouldnt fall. That ice was slippery! And scary. I honestly thought it would just be like rollerblading. But it was more scary. Just standing on the ice was scary coz your foot might just move a little and you might slip and land on your bump. But the boy, being the good coach that he is..heheh, was pretty much talking me thru it and teaching me how to align my feet and stuff. And the whole time i was gripping on to his hand real hard. We made a couple of rounds around the ring. Everytime we got too fast, i got reeeally scared. Then after a while, i managed to skate around myself. The boy even took a video of me waddling around on the ice.

After our 2 hours were up, we got out of there, and found a cinema next door. So we decided to watch madagascar 2! It's hilarious. And it was really nice cuddling up to him in the cinema :) When was the last time we got cinema seats that allowed us to cuddle? We need more cuddle-able cinema seats!

Oh yea...next to the cinema was an arcade and they had those machines with robot arms that pick up toys that you can win.. The boy wanted to try those coz we saw a couple of nice stitch plush toys. And he got 2 of em! At different machines lah. But he got 2 of em! For me!

Cool ey? It looked so easy! And these things are pretty big too. Now the little dinosaur plush has 2 more frens. Heheh. When it was time to leave, we decided not to take the shuttle bus and just walked back to the mrt station. I didnt wana go home...but yea, it was getting late

Sigh...i love spending time with him. And yesterday was just perfect ;)

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Saturday, November 22, 2008

Hey! Remember this?

TUESDAY, OCTOBER 18, 2005
The boy's back in tekong for a 4-day camp. Tonite's only the first nite but it's starting to get to me. Not that this is the first time. I think it's like some pattern thingy..i'll probably be fine for a couple of weeks. Then it'll start to get to me. Then i'll be fine again. Then it'll get to me again.
But it just drives me nuts that i only get to see him on weekends when i miss him so much.
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NS sey...

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Thursday, November 20, 2008

Can this be our song? :)

Nobody does it better
Makes me feel sad for the rest
Nobody does it half as good as you
Baby, you're the best

I wasn't lookin' but somehow you found me
I tried to hide from your love light
But like heaven above me
The spy who loved me
Is keepin' all my secrets safe tonight

And nobody does it better
Though sometimes I wish someone could
Nobody does it quite the way you do
Why'd you have to be so good?

The way that you hold me
Whenever you hold me
There's some kind of magic inside you
That keeps me from running
But just keep it coming
How'd you learn to do the things you do?

Oh, and nobody does it better
Makes me feel sad for the rest
Nobody does it half as good as you
Baby, baby, darling, you're the best

Baby you're the best
Darling, you're the best
Baby you're the best

I think i'm gona try to find the piano scores for this...

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Sunday, November 09, 2008

So many things have happened these past few weeks. It all started with Bambam's passing. I'm coping better now. Still visiting his grave everyday and his cage is still on my table. But i'm feeling much better. Honestly, it still feels like i have 3 boys.

Then of coz we had the chalet/halloween party. Which was loads of fun. And we found a cute little 4 month old bunny whom we named Rambo. Put him up at Pets Republic and he was just recently adopted. I never cycled so much my whole life. Went home with aching thighs.

And today, sweet adorable Tini finally got adopted. The moment she saw me, she ran to the door. Even after not visiting her for so long, she still remembers me. Got to spend some time with her before her new family came. They're realy nice people. Tini's their first pet so they had lotsa questions to ask, which was really good. And they're really serious about it. Went all out to get the preparations done. I'm sooo happy for her!! She didnt realy wana leave tho.. When it was time to put her in the carrier, she was clinging on to me. Kept rubbing herself on my legs and purring. I'm so gona miss her.. She's the sweetest, most gentle cat i've ever met. So happy she finally has a home and a family to give her all the attention she needs. I'll probably give them a call tomorow to see how she's doing.

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Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Bambam...i never knew this would be so hard..

Last night, i felt your presence in my room. Thank you baby.. You made me feel so much better. It was so nice and warm and comforting. I didnt feel so sad when you were there. I think So'od and Binks felt you too coz they came in and sat with me. I took the chance to tell you how much i miss you and talked about some of the cute things u used to do. I told you to stay with me longer coz i still need you while i get myself stable again. I hope you heard me.. My heart actually felt whole when you were there. Thank you sayang for staying that long..

But later on when i was calling Binks to his cage, instead of calling out his name, i called out your name instead, and it made me tear again. But i tried not to be so sad coz i was happy that you were around earlier.

I went back into my room hoping to still feel you around but i think you left. I only felt your slight presence. I still told you to stick around tho. Oh by the way, i havent cleaned your cage or put away your things yet. It's still too soon. I'll keep them where they are til i'm better.

I rotated your wheel just to hear the same sound you always make every night. And when i went to sleep, i wrapped my arm around your cage. And i've been collecting every single bit of memory i have of you. Mirza's helping me with that.

This morning wasnt so good tho.. I woke up at 4.30am which was exactly the same time yesterday that i msged Mirza and told him i couldnt stand watching you suffer like that. I looked over at your cage and i couldnt stop crying. So'od came in and sat on my bed with me. After awhile, i managed to get myself back to sleep. But i woke up again at 6.20am, just 5 mins before i felt your last heartbeat yesterday. I cried and called out for you but i didnt feel you around.

It was only later while i was getting ready for work did i feel your slight presence in my room again. I stayed awhile and looked at your pictures. I didnt care if i was late for work. I just wanted to stay with you. I told you to come back again tonight coz i could realy use your company. But i also told you that if possible, stay with me wherever i go so in that way, i can always feel you around even when i'm not in my room. Just now, when i came back to the office from lunch, i felt you again.. I whispered your name and smiled.

Oh btw, i left a sunflower seed and peanut on your grave. They're your favourite :) I'll be coming by everyday to check on you. But if i dont come by sometimes, it doesnt mean i forgot about you tau.. I might be away sometimes. But you're always in my heart :)

Please be there when i come home tonite baby.. I miss you..

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Tuesday, October 28, 2008

I spoke too soon.

This morning, at 6.25am, i felt Bambam's heartbeat for the last time. And i still cant believe he's gone.

Last night, for no reason, his condition deteriorated drastically. He was struggling to move and could barely keep his head up. I tried to give him water but he wouldnt move his mouth. By then it was too late to bring him over to the vet so i tried my best to keep him comfortable and warm and stayed up with him the whole nite hoping to rush him to the vet this morning. I held him in my hands for the longest time and stroked his head gently. He looked at me a few times when i called out his name. He looked at me when i started to cry.

I prayed so hard that he would get thru it. But somehow deep in my heart, i knew it was probably gona be time for him to go. I managed to tell him how much i love him, how much he means, how i can still remember the times when he was just a little baby. I just hope he heard it all.

Now my room feels so empty without him around. I used to always be able to hear him running on his wheel or digging around his bedding. And he always knows when i call out his name. To think i just cleaned his cage yesterday and he was totally fine the whole afternoon. I cant stop looking at his cage and wishing he's still in there. Everytime i hear a sound coming from where my table is, i'd think it's him.

It'll take me a long time to get over this.. Me and sis buried him just now under the row of bushes right behind my block. At least in that way, we can still be near. And i can always look out my window and know he's there.

Bambam...i hope you're fine wherever you are now. I'm glad that you can rest peacefully now. And i'm so grateful i got to spend your last hours with you and tell you so many things and look into your cute little eyes. Thank god for giving me that chance. I'm so sorry if i ever did anything to hurt you baby. You will always be the cutest of my 3 boys. I'll always remember you. Goodbye sweetheart...i love you..

Bambam

20 January 2007 - 28 October 2008

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Sunday, October 26, 2008

We need to switch to wireless broadband around here. Sis has been using the comp and i happen to have a little bit of work to do. So i've been tapping into a neighbour's wireless the whole day. Hah! Thankyou whoever you are.

Bambam's turning 2 years old in January and it worries me. He has been showing signs of aging and losing quite abit of fur. His appetite though, doesnt seem to run off. Still eating alot and has a big tummy. I'll admit...i'm not good at dealing with this. Even though people say he's just a hamster and thats how its meant to be coz they have a short lifespan, its just not the same for me. He's always been one of my little boys. And i love him just as much. Gah..i can still remember the day i brought him home from the SPCA. He was so tiny. Cant believe it's been so long now. I just hope God extends his life at least a little bit longer and when its time for him to go, i'm there with him.

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Tuesday, October 14, 2008

I wana get a curling iron. Ahahahha. Damnit. So many things, so little money. Somebody stop me from spending!! Luckily i gave the boy the money meant for his bday present. Otherwise, no present for u mister! Hoho.

Raya pics are fantabulous this year. Many merepek/funny ones. My email is flooded with facebook notification mails.

The boy will be getting a bike by the end of the year. And i shall get myself a pretty helmet so i can look good as a pillion :D

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Wednesday, October 08, 2008

I got an Omnia! It's so pretty~ Still checking out the functions and trying to getting used to it. Finally i got a new phone eh. And good thing also starhub gave me a $150 voucher. Thought i had to pay like 500 bucks for it. But i only got it for 200+!

Anyhoos, this sat jalan raye in our minibus! I hope it's clean, not dusty, has a working radio and the air-con works. Ahahahaa. Then maybe we'll play bunga api in it also. Confirm kecoh. Next year i'm thinking we upgrade to a 15 seater. Maner tau...we might have additions to the jalan raye geng.

In the office, kitorang tak abis2 dengar lagu raye. We brought along the kuihs that we made and bought a bottle of zappel. Feeling raye abis.

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Friday, October 03, 2008

Alamak. Looking at the geylang bazaar pictures...i miss the bazaar pulak. I havent had enough of the hustle and bustle! Raya came pretty fast this year dunchu think? Or maybe i was too caught up with work and stuff. Even the first day of raya passed so fast. And it's back to work. Well anyways, there's still the NFE jalan raya to look forward to.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!

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Monday, September 29, 2008

In the meantime, at work...

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Monday, September 22, 2008

Should i get a new hair colour for raya? Like ash brown. Ahahaha. Or highlights? Or just a nice rich chocolate colour. Oh the possibilities.. I'm definitely growing my hair out!

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Sunday, September 21, 2008

Damn i'm excited about raya! Plus the fact that all 11 of us are going jalan raya on a minibus. Bwahahaha. We should probably make a banner and hang it on the bus window

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Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Somehow i think...the paralympic's very inspiring to watch

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Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Here's a quote: "You know you're getting old when the wedding invites start coming in"
So far, i've been to 3 friends' weddings. And one of em already has a kid.

As much as it scares me, this whole getting married and starting your own family thing, i know that someday i'll be doing it too. I think i might've scared the boy abit with my plan. See i've always thought that the latest i would have my first child is at 28. And i would wana have my own place first before that happens. And between all that and getting married, i'd like to have a one year gap each. So that means: get married at 26, get a house by 27, have my first kid by 28. Problem is...i am, right now, 23. And that leaves me with only 3 years. 3 years people!! Worse is...i have not started saving and i have absolutely no idea how much i have in my CPF account. Awesome! Although i have just recently started on an investment plan.

Oh but i have decided that my wedding will be a joint-family thing. As in, the wedding will only be held at one particular spot and its shared by both sides of the family. How many times have you been to a wedding and actually get a chance to see the bride and groom and congratulate them? They're always moving from one side to the other. This is the perfect plan! And plus...it's MY wedding anyway, i would rather stick around and mingle with the people who attend it rather than being ushered off here and there.

And being a huge animal-lover, my kids will of course be raised in a animal-friendly home. I'll teach them to be compassionate towards animals, to stand up for them if they ever see other kids abusing an animal. And we will use products that are not tested on animals. Definitely no fur either.

I duno...izit too early to be thinking about all these? Was talking to Maad about it the other day and he was practically laughing his ass off at how serious i sound. But i'm a planner. I like knowing that i have a plan. That i know what i'm getting into and that when it does happen, i have everything ready, financially and all. But yea...obviously i havent started planning. Just been thinking about it. But shouldnt we all start to think about it?

It doesnt help when you have colleagues who're older than you and talking abt weddings and diaper cakes and how much it costs to buy a 4-room flat. But i gotta admit, the diaper cakes...damn nice! It's not a real cake, more like a gift hamper for a couple who just had a baby -- http://www.flickr.com/photos/whimsnfancies/ Apparently they were featured on a show on Suria. I would probably get one of those and send it to myself when i have a kid. Mwahaha

Oh and lately, there's been lotsa buzz about the parenting package that the government is proposing. They want us to get married and have lotsa babies. Hoho! Can! Make everything cheap cheap lor! With the 7% GST and things getting pricier, who wants to have lotsa babies? Give us subsidies! Discounts! And the birth rate will go up in no time! Not that i'm having a baby soon. Khakha

Baaah...growing up sucks.

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Saturday, August 09, 2008

Once i have my own place, i am sooo gonna get stuff from Anthropologie.com

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